The unstable wagon

So there is a mind set in most humans, I believe, that the rich have it easy and the ‘skinny’ never had to work for it. (I don’t like the word skinny)

Im here to tell you that for me being a certain size/weight is definitely something that I am constantly working on. I changed my diet, I work out 2 to 3 times a week and I still look down sometimes and hate the way I look. I am the queen of self sabotage. I was at my goal weight this past weekend. For one second I was overjoyed, one second I was proud of myself for a major accomplishment. Then I looked at my saggy belly skin and untoned arms and let all that hard work be erased by small imperfections that came about by the four beautiful babies i carried and birthed in the last 8 years. I can’t put all the credit on pregnancies. In hindsight i should have been a healthier 20-something. Now that I have been working out for a year i realize the importance of it. I strive to be STRONG not skinny.

I ate like crap all weekend, fell off the keto wagon hard! And when I went to the gym this morning I felt it! Sluggish, sore joints and fatigue. When I weighed myself…my crap eating and self sabotage showed on the scale.

So here is your PSA for the day. I don’t think we will ever be 100% happy with our bodies. No matter how much we are told not to step on the scale everyday before we get in the shower, or that it’s ok to indulge every once in a while or that we don’t need to lose anymore weight. Do what makes you happy. But realize, falling off a wagon does not feel good. You will feel the effects for days to follow! So make the choice before you teeter on the edge…can I handle the outcome of a fall? Is the set back worth it? Chances are, it’s not.


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